Norah must know something’s different.
There’s a little tiny sibling in that belly. And come April the two will get to meet.
It was a bit of a surprise as I watched two lines appear, mere hours before we were ready to depart for our beach vacation. I had let Ryan sleep in so I scooped up Norah and got about halfway down the hallway before I turned on my heel, went back for the tests, gave my lovely husband a bit of a shove and threw the tests on the bed.
No one really expects to wake up to that so it took him a minute. He was immediately thrilled.
Myself, well, not as much. This sounds childish, I realize, but to me, my entire vacation had just been ruined. No drinking, no para-sailing, no go karts. Could I even paddle board? (I could, in fact, and did.) Let’s not even mention the fact we’d have to spill it all to our family at only 6 weeks. I’m a processor, I like to process independently, and this was not in my vision.
But now that our vacation is two months past, and I’m in the second trimester (where, hopefully, no bad news will find us), and I realize how nice it may actually be to have two siblings so close in age (my sister and I are only 18 months apart ourselves), I’m excited. Truly.
My biggest complaint was that I had the whole next year planned out. School in September, maybe a trip to visit friends up north, then come spring an international midwifery trip to kick-start an apprenticeship.
Of course, the universe has an interesting way of working out.
I recently became even MORE at peace with my life’s direction when my school announced a temporary hold to be placed on all international trips while Midwives International work out a few kinks in their organization.
So now, I laugh. So far I’ve approached this pregnancy in a completely different light then I did with our first, and I am grateful for the insight. I’m grateful we’ve never had to feel the sting of infertility. I’m grateful Norah gets a sibling – we did always want to give her one. Feeling ungrateful has made me grow in a way I never really predicted I could.